Being a first-time mom-to-be, before meeting my little one I start to understand things I did not previously.
It's an eye-opening experience because you start to realize you are actually capable to love someone who you have not met just yet, so much. All you think about is how you can make things easier and more comforting for the baby in order to make sure he/she gets the best, nothing less.
You will find yourself doing things you don't normally do, but for the little bean, you would. Like eating extra healthy for example, leaving out that sugary snack or sacrificing sashimi for 9 months. Hahaha. You become super extra careful on things you never could have imagined yourself even bothering. Sacrifices, unconditional love, and putting baby first is motherhood.
I would say being pregnant is a different journey for every individual. Most of the time I've only read about people writing about pregnancy as if it's all rainbows and butterflies but it wasn't like that for me. I'm grateful for this precious gift, but I had some points that I didn't like. My morning sickness was terrible, haha! Apart from that, I think I was on a heavy emotional roller-coaster. But what keeps me going is when I know it's all going to be worth it when I meet the little one! ❤️
Referring to what I wrote above, I think the hardest/saddest/most challenging moments for me was when I was not educated much on prenatal depression because it is not widely spoken of, but I grew to realize that it does exist.
It was tough for me not being able to take dominion over my emotions as before and sometimes it gets even more overwhelming when I think the baby might be feeling what I'm feeling and how it does affect people around me.
It is no one's fault, not the baby, not my husband. But instead, it's a battle in the head. A wave of emotions. I'm getting a lot better now. I thank the husband and the baby for their patience and love. Also, having scoliosis made things a lot tougher to be pregnant.
My personal advice would be, even if it was planned or unplanned, know that you are deserving whatever happens. No one should pressure you to tell you otherwise, and you are so strong mentally and physically to be going through this tough ride. Your feelings and emotions are validated and it's okay to break down once in a while. Know that you are not alone and you are amazing.
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